“In Review”

On Monday, I put the first part of The Schrodinger Paradox up on Amazon, and set the release date for 5/1. And then started to do part 2.

Right now, both parts are “in review” which “could take up to 72 hours.”

…which is almost up for both parts. And I posted a draft of part 2 of the novel, but it wasn’t the right damn draft, and I can’t change that until the “in review” status changes.

I have part 3 ready, but I’m going to wait on that until Amazon pulls its thumb out of its ass so I can post the correct version of part 2.

Anyway.

The Schrodinger Paradox: Cataclysm will (hopefully) be live on 5/1. I’ll post a link when they let me. In the meantime, allow me to tease you with the back-of-the-book description:

The end is coming.

Unlucky jerk Tom Beadle was on watch at NASA when the collision alert sounded: a new asteroid, bigger than the dino-killer, headed for Earth. Big problem, but that’s why we have NASA, right? Except, after decades of budget cuts, NASA has no way to shove it off course. That job has to be contracted out. Will the private sector company his best friend from college works at succeed where the government option failed? Might be best to have a backup plan, just in case…

Busy month, and announcements

April has been…stupidly, hellaciously busy. I have not gotten as much done as I’d hoped to at all.

It’s too easy to get knocked out of the writing groove when there’s other stuff going on. Like dental appointments (first week of April, and one coming up for my daughter tomorrow), doctors’ appointments (including the office fucking up the appointment day when they migrated from one system to another), and a phone call from our insurance company to set up a policy review…which I’ve got set for Wednesday.

I have actually gotten some things accomplished, and others figured out.

On the writing front: I have figured out that I actually do better, writing in the car, with click-pens that I don’t have to worry about keeping track of pen caps. I’ve got two of those. Yeah, it means that I’m kind of limited on ink colors, since they’re both loaded with blue, but they’re both comfortable to write with, and I can change the ink color in one to make the character who’s talking to me at the moment happier.

Now, I just need to figure out a safe place for my other inked pens, for when I get stuck here at home…because I don’t need to carry half a dozen plus the two I routinely grab in the car.

Anyway. While I’ve not gotten everything accomplished that I really wanted to get done, I have accomplished some things.

Whine in a Box (Liquid Diet Chronicles) is about a third of rhe way into it. Just under 20K words, as of today. It’s…going places I really didn’t quite expect, and things are complicating nicely. Meg’s kind of pissed about it, but sees that yes, that is where things are going, and is cooperating with it.

Better yet, I’ll have the first three weeks of May with full school days, then the kids have half days for the four days of finals week, then they’ll be leaving for a bus tour vacation with Grandma right after Memorial Day. So I’ve still got a month or so to get first draft writing in. And that might be enough to finish the first draft of a second novel.

As for the announcement…I’m working through putting the parts of The Schrodinger Paradox up on Amazon. I’m planning on having each part come out a month apart: May, June, then July. Then I’ll put the omnibus Kindle version out in August. I hope to have the hardback ready by then, but I’m not thoroughly sure I can…not yet. Because things are fucky with the cover art vs. Amazon.

Wish me luck.

Eep!

So, this morning, while I was getting my son pried out of bed for school, I realized something.

It’s April.

I have seven and a half more weeks where the kids won’t be underfoot all day/every day.

I have four weeks before I want to have the first part of The Schrodinger Paradox up for sale. I need to get on the formatting for that, and get covers figured out. And…

…and I need to quit panicking.

I also need to write. On first draft type stuff.

I’ve said it before: I can’t write while the kids are home, and my focus is on preventing them from killing each other, now that they’re old enough they’re not gleefully trying to kill themselves by accident. I can edit and revise stuff I’ve already written.

I’m going to bust my ass trying to get Liquid Diet Chronicles 3: Whine in a Box done in first draft. I’ve got a good idea of where it’s going, and what’s going to happen. The difficulty is in typing fast enough to let it come out at speed. And sometimes, the character sits up and goes “Naw, let’s do this, instead!” after I’ve started writing in the initial “that”, and getting hit with writer’s block until I figure out where she wanted to change direction.

Sometimes? No. Frequently.

I don’t exactly have control over my creative output. At all. I don’t even have the illusion of it anymore.

I’ve got Certified Public Assassin finished in first draft format (first draft finished was about 73K words–actual finished finished draft is…anybody’s guess).

And, like I said, LDC 3 is…coming. Finally. Despite being sick last week, I still averaged about a thousand words per day writing on it, and working on other stories along with it, when it wasn’t coming smoothly.

First draft done!

I finished the first draft of Certified Public Assassin. I’ve set it aside while I work on other projects–like the next installment of The Liquid Diet Chronicles. Book 3 is (currently) titled Whine in a Box, and the general shape of the plot is pretty clear.

Unfortunately, Meg’s still kinda sputtering in indignant offense about Molly the assassin telling her to sit down, shut up, and wait her turn–or else.

So I’m working on some short stories. Which will come out…when I’ve got them done, polished up, and collected. Like I did with the dragon stories. Current collection title is Faerie Gifts.

The kids are back to school, today, and I’ve been working, both on the short stories and on LDC 3. And I need to get back to it, because I’ve got less than an hour left.

…almost…there…

I am within spitting distance of finishing Certified Public Assassin. As this is Spring Break, I normally couldn’t guarantee being able to finish up this week; however, this year, my mother-in-law will be taking the kids Tuesday morning, and I’ll have all of Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday to write.

And that’s ignoring what I’m able to get done when the kids are busy doing other things.

I am not kidding about how close to done the first draft is. I have probably three or four chapters left to write, tops. So, maybe another six or eight thousand words (it’s sitting at 68K now).

Then I’ll set it aside, because Meg’s starting to get noisy again, and I can probably write her book in a month or two. Because I think I know what’s going on (yeah, I know what’s going on–she won’t stop bitching about it even with an assassin threatening her to try to get her to wait her flippin’ turn).

It’s bad enough that I already have the opening for Whine in a Box written…

The Schrodinger Paradox is…done. I am going to do a staggered release with it: Cataclysm is due out in May (in Kindle only); Heisenberg’s Point of Observation is due out in June, also on Kindle; and Entanglement will be out in July. August will see an omnibus edition released in Kindle, and a hardback.

I…had set it up. I’d ordered a proof. And…Amazon and the files had an argument, and the proof turned out not looking at all like I wanted it to. Gotta admit, I cried a little from sheer frustration. So, now…I’m redoing the whole mess. I’m just thankful it didn’t let me set a publication date–I’d just left it as a draft, with plans to send it to publication a day before I’d planned on it coming out.

Oh, ugh. I just realized. I have to write the back cover descriptions for the pieces I’ll be releasing individually… Damn it. I hate that part…

Eventful fortnight (or so)

So, The Dragon’s in the Details went live on 3/1. It’s doing well (I credit the cover art for grabbing people’s attention–it’s damn cute). I have The Schrodinger Paradox finished. I’ve ordered a proof copy of the hardback, and will work on cycling through the paperback for a proof probably by the end of the week. I’m still planning on splitting it in thirds and publishing as novellas because it really is three novellas in one novel. I’ll be putting those out in May, June, July, and the omnibus edition (as Kindle and as hard copy) in August.

I’ve got a very helpful setup, now. Yes, I’m still in my recliner for writing, but the laptop sits on a TV tray and I’ve got a USB keyboard and mouse, both of which are the quiet varieties (both courtesy of my mother-in-law who gave me a gift card that covered both). Basically, I have a desk. Of sorts. And it’s mine.

I work better at a desk. I’m more productive, and focus better. This is mostly used for my writing setup, to keep it from becoming routine. End of the day (or after my brain’s fried), I set the laptop in my lap and turn the keyboard and mouse off. This time of day, though, especially on a school day, is work time. Blog is work (sort of).

And plot is gelling, and characters are discussing things in my head. Yes, it sounds like I’m crazy, but I’m not. I’m a writer, and y’all enjoy it.

Current projects being actively worked on are Certified Public Assassin, and (yeah, I know, but she wouldn’t shut up) Liquid Diet Chronicles: Whine in a Box.

My mom and sister got me the specific CD that CPA writes best to. Immediately after that, word count jumped. And…two of the characters I’d been writing…decided to do something I hadn’t planned for. The bastards didn’t tell the author everything about why they were doing what they were doing, and they’ve gone from bad guys to pawns. They do not want to be pawns, and we still haven’t seen the bad guys.

Currently, CPA is at 56K words. At the rate I’m going, I might be finished with the first draft by the end of the month, and be able to get Meg’s next story written.

Assuming I don’t get ambushed by more short stories. I’ve got two or three ready for another themed collection, and ideas for a couple more.

It’s on the way…

The Dragon’s in the Details is up for pre-order now, and will be out on Wednesday of this week. I posted the first part of the first story for y’all last week.

I have several projects in the works, too: there’s The Schrodinger Paradox (which will come out this summer), and then Certified Public Assassin (which I’m working on, now), and also the third of the Liquid Diet Chronicles (which is assembling itself slowly). The stories are still coming, folks, I promise.

I just don’t always have any control whatsoever about which story is coming out, the pace at which it’s coming, or which one’s going to be next. I just know I’ve got The Schrodinger Paradox finished in second draft (and about a third of the way finished in final draft), and I’ve got CPA about…half done? I think? Somewhere around that.

I’m glad I have the stories coming, and I’m thankful I can write them. I’m very thankful there’s a way for me to share them with others, and be able to make the world a little bit brighter for people for a little while.

As promised…

A Friend, Indeed

“Momma, there’s a dragon in my wagon.” 

Zoe blinked awake, rubbed her eyes, and blinked some more. “What did you say, baby?” she murmured, voice rough and scratchy with the nap she hadn’t intended to take when she’d laid down.

Zoe hadn’t been sleeping well. Neither had Tish, her daughter. Since Duane had deployed, she’d been waking up with nightmares every few hours. Zoe don’t know what he did tucking the little four-year-old girl in that was different from what she was doing, but she’d never had so many.

“I said there’s a dragon in my wagon. In the back yard. I was gonna go out and play, but it’s there.”  She popped a thumb in her mouth, frowning worriedly.

The exhausted woman closed her eyes and sighed. A dragon. In her wagon. Zoe supposed her daughter simply wanted her momma out in the back yard with her, since she was feeling her daddy’s absence. “Is it a friendly dragon, or an unfriendly one?” she asked, humoring her little girl. Her daughter was only four, and this was the first time her daddy had been gone longer than his two weeks a year training. She wasn’t taking it well.

Hell, neither was Zoe. Even without counting Tish’s nightmares, she had trouble falling and staying asleep without the warm, breathing hulk of her husband next to her. Her eyes were drifting closed again, against her will while Tish considered her question.

“I don’t know, Momma, it’s sleeping. I didn’t go near it. I didn’t even open the outside door—I saw it through the glass when I opened the inside door to go into the back yard. It looks like it’s only about the size of my floppy dog.” She blinked big brown eyes at her mother, while Zoe tried desperately to keep her own eyes from falling shut.

“Tish, can you hand me my shoes?” Zoe forced her eyes open wide, trying to wake up enough. “We can go investigate.” 

“I have them already, Momma,” she said, holding out the canvas slip-on shoes Zoe kicked into for grabbing the mail from the box down by the street.

She sighed and sat up, shoving her thick, black hair that had escaped from her braid out of her eyes with one hand, taking the shoes with the other to set on the floor so she could shove her bare feet into them. “You said it was in the back, right?  What color was the dragon?”

“It was the same green as my juice,” she replied, reaching up and wrapping her small hand around Zoe’s index and middle fingers. “It was really pretty in the yellow wagon, on the red leaves.”

Zoe smiled down at her. “I bet it was,” she said, thinking of that yellow Little People/Duplos plastic thing Tish insisted had to go into the back yard. Duane really would have preferred her to have a little red, metal wagon, like the one he’d grown up playing with, but this one was what they’d found, and what she’d loved.

Since it was November, it was full of dead leaves that she’d been using it to transport from one leaf pile to another around the yard. “I wonder if the dragon is in your wagon because it wants to sleep in your leaves,” Zoe mused.

She looked up at her mother, brow scrunched and brown eyes thoughtful. “I dunno,” she said. “Could be, if it doesn’t mind how scratchy leaves are. They are soft.”

The back yard had a really high privacy fence surrounding it. It was one of the things Zoe and Duane had liked about the house when they’d moved in: with the gate closed and locked, it was safe for a little girl to go out and play by herself. Usually. And their little girl was very independent. Usually.

Zoe opened the back door and looked out. And blinked.

Tish hadn’t been making things up to get her mother to go outside with her. There actually was a dragon in her wagon. It was about the size of a basset hound. Same general shape, too, with a long body. Just…there were also wings.

And it was looking at them, with golden eyes about as mournful as a basset’s.

“Momma…the dragon looks sad,” Tish observed.

“I noticed,” Zoe said absently. “Stay here.” 

“Okay,” she said softly.

She opened the back storm door and stepped out on the top step, closing the door carefully behind her. And really looked at the dragon, her arms crossed. She didn’t go any closer. It dropped its head and whined, wiggling in the wagon. The dragon was heavy enough to rock it on its wheels, plastic creaking ominously.

It sounded like the bassets Zoe had known—both the one she’d grown up with, and the one that they’d had until Tish had turned two—used to when they wanted scritches. That had to be why she went down and sat on the bottom step, about six feet from her daughter’s little plastic wagon full of dead maple leaves.

The dragon…the dragon hopped out of the wagon, and slunk over to her, creeping close to the ground even considering its short legs, and kind of sidling a little. As soon as it got close enough, it went belly down and crept the rest of the way before sitting up and laying its head on her knee. It looked up at her mournfully, then up at where Tish was standing, hands and face pressed to the glass of the door. And it whined again, and then nudged its head under her hand, just like a dog would, when it wanted to be stroked.

So, Zoe obliged, stroked its bright green snout, up to its brow ridges. The dragon’s jaw fell open, a bright red, forked tongue falling sideways out its mouth. Like a dog’s, just…forked. Its breath was hotter than she expected, considering she was currently petting and scratching a four-footed creature with scales. Not hot, like threatening fire, just hot like a mammal’s.

Even though it was clearly reptile-like, it was definitely not a reptile. Really lizard-like, low-slung with scales, just…warm-blooded. Maybe more like a bird?  But…birds had two legs and wings, not four. And feathers.

Zoe shook her head, trying to think past the exhausted fog as she looked at the creature begging for affection, and eyeing her daughter with longing. Not a bird. Not a lizard, either, despite the four legs and scales. And wings? So, six limbs, and warm blooded, but otherwise looking like a lizard. She really didn’t know what to make of it, but could tell it was happy with the attention.

“You like that, huh?” she said, rubbing around a weird, ragged-looking ear. Not like a dog’s, but not the exposed membrane of a reptile, nor the feather-covered membrane of a bird. Just…weird. Scaly and floppy. It leaned hard into the rubbing and…grumbled wasn’t quite the right word. One hind leg started thumping.

Zoe couldn’t help but smile. She glanced up to where Tish was dancing in impatience, but staying in the house like a good girl. “Come on out, honey, but go slow,” she said.

The dragon, after all, had very, very sharp predator’s teeth. And even if it was acting like a dog, it wasn’t one.

It whined again as the door came open, and closed very quietly. Trembled as she came slowly down the steps on the other side of Zoe from the dragon. And then, the dragon crawled across her lap to shove its head into her daughter’s arms, and try to cuddle with both of them at once.

And Zoe could tell why the plastic wagon had been creaking: the dragon weighed around half again more than her four year old.

Tish’s delighted giggle had the dragon jerking away to gallop around the back yard in sheer joy, which let Zoe get a better look at it. It was long and low, with short legs like a basset. It stretched its stubby wings out to help it keep its balance in the turns.

She wondered where it came from, and if it could fly.

It wound up crawling up under Tish’s arm and draping its front half over her lap, nudging against her cheek and chin with that smooth snout. And she cuddled the dragon, cooing happily as it blinked and smiled at her, bright red, forked tongue hanging from one side of its mouth. Zoe couldn’t help but smile, and reach down to scratch behind the dragon’s ear again. It grunted and started thumping the step with a hind leg, disarming Zoe further, the more it acted like a dog.

Tish smiled up at her, brown eyes bright, and dimples showing. “Momma, can we keep it?”

She hesitated. The dragon whined, climbing half over Tish’s lap to nuzzle Zoe’s arm and add hopeful eyes to Tish’s request. Zoe sighed. “I suppose,” she said hesitantly. “We can keep the dragon for as long as it will stay.” 

It licked her face. With raw meat-smelling breath. She sighed, wiping the rather slimy slobber off—there honestly wasn’t much—and pushed up to her feet. “I’m going to get a chair,” she said, “and a bowl for water.”

Both were just inside the back door. If either had been much further away, she’d not have gone for them. Because she’d been raised knowing you didn’t leave a child unsupervised with any animal for long at all.

They had the supplies to get a dog—they’d had a dog for a while, and then she’d passed. She’d been a great dog. Zoe wished, in a way, that Tish had been old enough to remember her, but in another, she was glad that Tish didn’t miss her dog for long. They’d either thrown away or donated most of the things they’d had for the dog, but not all of them. The things they still had would be about the right size for a basset-hound-sized dragon…she thought.

Zoe still wasn’t convinced she wasn’t hallucinating. Dragons weren’t real. Couldn’t be real. Because it was scaled like a lizard, but warm-blooded like a mammal. Or bird. Just with four legs. And a pair of wings, so six limbs, total. It acted like a dog, but she couldn’t quite get past the differences. The critter was strange.

The phone rang, while she was getting the bowl and the umbrella chair next to the back door. There was a handset and charger base just inside the kitchen, next to the stove, and she ducked in to grab it and answer. “Coffman’s residence, Zoe speaking,” she said, pinning the handset between her shoulder and ear.

“Zoe, it’s Mom.”  She hesitated. “I hate to ask you this, but has there been anything…strange…going on?”

She thought wryly of the dragon in the back yard. “Not much, no,” she said. “I do have a four-year-old with a vivid imagination who’s upset that her daddy’s been gone for a month, and has no idea when he’ll be back, and a bad case of prego-mush-brain, but other than that?  Nothing terribly strange.”

Just the dragon in the back yard that shouldn’t exist, she thought.

Her mom hummed. Then realized what Zoe had said. “Prego-mush-brain?  Are you pregnant?  Again?”

“You make it sound like I’m pregnant so often,” Zoe said drily. “This is only the second time.”

“But…but Duane isn’t there,” she said.

“He’s not been gone that long,” Zoe replied tartly, offended.

“That wasn’t what I meant,” she lamented. “Does he know?”

Zoe carried the bowl and chair and phone out in the back yard. Set the bowl down, and filled it with water. “Mom. He’s been gone a month. I just started the second trimester. He was with me for the first appointment, and saw and heard the bean’s heartbeat, and saw it jumping around on the portable ultrasound screen they brought in when they couldn’t find it with the Doppler. I am not scheduled for the big sonogram for another two weeks.” 

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?” she demanded.

Zoe sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose. “When did I tell you about my pregnancy with Tish?” Tish was bouncing around the back yard, giggling, and jumping into the piles of leaves she’d gathered. The green dragon bounced around behind her, moving like an extra-large ferret, and piling into the leaves after her, shoving its head down and flipping leaves into the air.

It was so cute it damn near gave her cavities. And it was one of the first times in the past two weeks Tish had played so happily and enthusiastically.

“Halfway through your second trimester, when you had started showing and couldn’t hide it anymore,” she replied acidly.

“No, Mom. Halfway through my second trimester, when the dangers of miscarriage dropped to nearly nothing,” Zoe pointed out. “You know. When you wouldn’t have your heart broken by losing another grandchild, like you did with Steve’s wife’s baby they lost right after they told you?”

She went silent for a moment. Then, “Oh. I see. Well. I guess that teaches me to make assumptions.”  Her voice was apologetic—Zoe knew that was probably all she’d get, since she wasn’t her mother’s darling youngest son who was perfect in every way. In her mother’s sight.

But only there. Everywhere else, Zoe’s little brother was a flaky twit, who should thank God every day he’d managed to marry so far above his worth.

“What kind of strangeness were you calling about, anyway?” she asked, after she’d let her mother brood a bit.

“Oh. Not much, really,” she said hesitantly. “Only…your brother called, and swore up, down, and sideways, he’d seen horse with a horn, running around with a herd of deer. I was wondering if he was on something, or if he’d actually seen something…unusual.”

“You mean mythological,” Zoe said flatly. “I’d say it was safer to assume he was on something until you get verification otherwise.”

“It’s one of the reasons I called you,” she explained, matter of fact. “You always have your head on straight, and you’d be more likely to know one way or the other.”

Zoe sighed. “Mom, Tish is in the back yard. I really need to go.” 

“Call me later, and tell me how you’re doing,” she demanded.

“Tired as hell, but the queasy is fading,” she said. “I’ll call sometime soon, when she’s gone down for a nap.”

Zoe found herself holding a phone giving her a fast beep as her mother hung up without saying goodbye, like she always did. She had this superstition that actually saying goodbye was bad luck, and would end with someone’s death.

She rolled her eyes, and leaned the umbrella chair against the house, thinking about what else they still had for a dog that might work for a dragon. Or what it might need. Shelter. A food dish. A collar?  Probably not that. Beds, bedding. Probably not a kennel for the house, either.

Shelter first. Zoe frowned, scratched her head while she tried to think, and then remembered where the dog house was: in someone else’s yard after they’d set it on the curb. She would have to either build or buy a new one, if the dragon decided to stay with them for long. And if the dragon spent much time outside.

The pillow, bedding, and toys would need to be replaced. They’d tossed the old stuff since it’d been old and worn when the dog had passed away. So Zoe would need to buy everything new.

The dragon galloped along after Tish, using its wings, now and then, to help it make a turn, or to keep it on its feet after a jump over a toy. Tongue hanging out of the side of its mouth, just like a dog.

Tish finally got tired, and went over to her favorite spot to sit, over in a small hollow beneath the spindly little maple tree, and flopped down. The dragon followed, curling around behind her with its head under her hand, and sighed as she started petting it. She scooched down to lay against the dragon, twisting over onto her side, murmuring to it. Zoe couldn’t hear what she was saying, but the dragon seemed to be listening intently.

Zoe got up, then paused and squinted toward the sun, thinking about the time. “Tish, it’s time to go in for a while,” she called.

“Can I bring Buddy?” she called back, climbing to her feet.

“Why did you call it Buddy?”

“Buddy isn’t an it,” she said firmly. “Buddy’s a boy. And it’s his name.”

Zoe looked down at the dragon. There wasn’t any visible cue of sex, so she had to ask. “How do you know that?”

“He told me. In my head.”

“Of course,” Zoe murmured to herself. “How stupid of me.” She eyed the dragon’s feet. The talons were blunt, and didn’t look like they’d damage the floors any more than the dog’s had, so she shrugged. “Why not. We’ll see if Buddy can be a house-friend.”

She squealed, hugged the dragon (apparently named Buddy, now) around its long, scaly neck, and scampered for the house, the dragon happily gallumphing behind her, pausing to look up at Zoe as she held open the door. “It’s okay,” she said, nodding toward the interior of the house. “You can go in. Just no crapping on the floor.”

*Headdesk*

I spent last week working on CPA. Not sure what’s got it stopped, now, but I think I know where it started going off. And I think I can fix it.

And I think there’s a lot I have to go back and add in. Because the character said I’m missing more than half of the story, and she’s not going to cooperate going forward until I go back and fill in the rest. I started doing that, last week, and got about 6-7K words (and an extra half-dozen or so chapters) done. And I’m going to have go go back and do that again until she’s satisfied.

That…wasn’t a bad accomplishment. Because midweek I got slammed with a full-body auto-immune tantrum. And Friday…well. Friday, I got to meet an online friend in person! Which, yeah, that was fun, and made me really happy.

This week, I’ll be working on finishing up The Dragon’s in the Details. I’ve heard back from two beta readers, and I’ve got a little work to do with it.

And then, I’ll go back and work on CPA. And see if I can’t get my character to cooperate again.

Wish me luck? Because she’s been really impatient, and Meg (the vampire) is starting to get noisy again…

Busy, last week.

Last week, I got side-swiped, hard, with short stories. I finished one, and then wrote three more. And now, the collection of six is in the hands of three of my beta readers (the other one’s still busy with part 2 of The Schrodinger Paradox). Book title is The Dragon’s in the Details. I hope to be able to publish sometime next month, or the one after at the latest. So, March or April.

Along with that, I also finished revising The Schrodinger Paradox: Cataclysm (the first part). It should be ready to go when I’m ready to put it up. I still need cover art for it. And I’ve got 2/3 of The Schrodinger Paradox to go, where editing/revising is concerned. And I’ll need to format each part, and format the whole. So, there’s actually a lot more work, even if the initial drafting takes longest. The rest is just…tedium.

Yesterday, I learned what one of the things is that continually blocks me from writing during the day, when the kids are up: the television. I have NO issues writing when they’re up and it’s not on. I have some, but fewer, issues writing while the TV’s on and I’m blocking it out with headphones and music, when it’s just me and them at home. But I cannot write while the kids (or kids and spouse) are watching TV without the headphones, and only sort of with headphones.

I think part of it is the mom-brain: I’m focused on paying attention to what the kids are doing/watching so that I can intervene if necessary. Or start a discussion of a hard subject that was brought up by what they were watching. Or shut down fights/discussion while they’re watching TV and my other half is watching/reading something on his laptop with his headphones before they disturb him and he yells at them…which starts a death-spiral of over-emotional reactions on all parties’ parts, including mine, and I end up exhausted for days. Better to pay attention and head it off before it gets kicked all the way over.

Unfortunately, it takes the same part of my brain that transmits stories from wherever they come from to paper to do that.

And, if it’s not just mom-brain, then it’s dividing my attention so many different ways that kills the ability to write.

Probably next week, I’ll post a sample for the short stories.